I have been avoiding this entry for awhile. But I made a promise to myself and to you that I would share all of the steps along this journey. And that includes the difficult ones.
As exciting as a new direction can be, it isn't always easy. And you make missteps. They happen. And while I certainly don't think it's worth beating yourself up over mistakes, you have to be honest about them.
So it here it is...
I became passive. I behaved in ways that weren't true to myself. I watched while others were mistreated. I allowed myself to be mistreated. And instead of saying anything, I got angry.
Angry at the situation. Angry at the people involved. And furious with myself.
I can sit and point the finger until it stiffens, but, at the end of the day, I can't control what others do. I can't control how they walk in this world or the message they share. I can only control myself.
We are human, and humanity comes with the constant need to choose. Some choose anger and some choose kindness. Some choose insecurity and some choose strength. And all of these choices can change on a given day and in a given moment.
So today I choose forgiveness. I am extending compassion and understanding to others and to myself. Not every choice is easy. Not every moment effortless. But mistakes are meant to help us learn and to grow. In the words of Alexander Pope,
To err is human, to forgive is divine.