Off the Mat. On the Board.

As my fellow teacher trainees and I sat in our first class, we were told to expect an over abundance of epiphanies as we dove deeper into our practice. This couldn't be more true.

One of my brightest lightbulb moments came when I was surfing for the third time ever in my life. As I biffed it and scrambled to get back up on my board for the hundredth time in a row, I realized that I wasn't scared. For someone as anxious as me, for someone who is afraid of falling from a handstand, this was a moment of unfamiliar tranquility.

Fast forward a little bit later in my lesson when I doubted if I could make it past the next wave. As I stared at the wall of water crashing in front me, my heart started racing, my body tensed and it was too late. I got pummeled by Mother Nature herself. In the words of Patrick Swayze,

"Fear causes hesitation, and hesitation will cause your worst fears to come true."

And there was hesitation in its most damaging form. The moment I doubted my abilities was the moment I got rocked. I've seen hesitation get in my way for the past two weeks and, undoubtedly, for my entire adult life.

The kicker about hesitation? When I simply acknowledge and move past it, nothing catastrophic happens. In fact, I actually end up living that much more boldly and taking on life with that much more passion. As surfer Greg Noll said,

"I took off on a wave, went down the side, popped out the other end, and went, shit, I'm still alive!"